Monday, December 15, 2014

Lessons from a guitar string

Music is made in stress.  A string pulled tight, it has to be plucked, it has to be stressed.  Moved from its comfortable, resting position.  The bending of the string induces stress.  As the string bends, as the sting arches in stress and then releases it vibrates - and there is the offering.  This one note, high and long.  Stressed and empty and stretched right out, this is the space of song

In stress there can be song.  The resonance is in the surrender.  (A Voskamp)

Reading these words, I am reminded of a time long ago.  I was part of the music team at a women’s retreat, a position of comfort as I could “hide” behind my guitar.  On this retreat however, I had also been asked to give a talk.  In preparation several of the team would meet in the chapel before each talk to pray with the presenter.  As we gathered to pray for me, I pretty much feel apart – fear and nerves took over, I didn’t think I could go on. 

One person began to pray and as they did they prayed a pray very much like the words above. To produce the music from the guitar, there must be tension and that the musician knows just how taught the string needs to be to produce the right sound, the right note.  That I was like that string and God, my Father was the great musician and knew just how much tension was needed to make a beautiful sound.  His grace would be sufficient, that I could rest in His hands.

Well, I did the talk and I’m grateful to report that it went just fine.  I learned a valuable lesson that day, that in those times of stress, we can trust Him to produce in us a beautiful song.  He knows what He’s doing, all we need do is surrender into His most capable and loving hands . . and let the song be played.

Monday, December 8, 2014

Complete in Him

Abba, reading this morning and remembering, holding Joshua in my arms, his golden curls surrounding his sweet face, sleeping, breathing warmth upon me, the peace, the joy, the contentment.  Wanting that moment to never end.

Now he’s a young man, with a wife and a life separate from mine. . . and I miss him.  I am so grateful for the young man he has become, so grateful -  but there is an ache in my heart for the little boy who held my hand and filled my days with wonder.

But this is as it should be – for him and for me.  The love is still there, different perhaps, but very much present in our relationship.  And I am grateful.

Your love is a perfect love that knows no end, a love that never changes, always present.  Yours is the very breath I breathe and the rhythm of my heart beat, the hand that holds me, the voice that comforts me and the life that fills each moment    . . . and I am so very grateful to be Your child.

Monday, November 3, 2014

Grace to give

Father, as I came to this chapter (2 Cor 8) on “giving” I almost skipped it partly because I didn't really want to deal with it – and then I realized it’s an area I do need to deal with, or rather allow You to.  While I have always given, I have not always done so cheerfully and I know it is the attitude of my heart that really matters. I understand these things with my head but need You to help me get them into my heart.  Not just in the area of money, but with my whole life. 

One of my life’s goals is to be generous with my life.  I believe that is a desire that You have placed within my heart and Your grace will accomplish what You have begun.  All I can do is trust You, to listen for Your voice and follow where You lead.  It’s a wonderful journey and I am so grateful that You are with me – each and every step of the way . . .even when I am reluctant.



Saturday, October 18, 2014

Journey's end

The first day of our adventure began before day break.  After loading the car with all our paraphernalia, including three dogs and two cats, Brant went to start the car and  . . . nothing.  After several attempts to jump start it – to no avail - we switched out the battery with another vehicle and we were on our way and we were even on time.  About half way through the trip we pulled off the interstate to get gas.  As we pulled off onto the exit ramp, the van died.  Fortunately it turned out that the connection on the battery had come loose, so it was easy to fix.  We were grateful it didn't happen on the interstate in the middle of construction that was going on.   Our next stop was Auto Zone, where we purchased a battery that was appropriate for our van. 

The rest of the trip were smoothly until we got to our driveway.  Anyone who has been to the house knows about our driveway, which is rather steep.  About half way up we encountered a fallen tree – or at least the top part with all the limbs and branches.  So, we put the van in park and walked in the rest of way only to find that the electricity was out – due to another fallen tree.  Brant and Reuben got a chain saw and headed back down the drive, while I called the electric company (fortunately the hard line phone worked).  In a few moments the guys were up with the van and we unloaded and began to settle in. 

Now the reason we had started this adventure before the break of day was because Brant really wanted to see Franking High School’s football game, which was taking place about 2 hours away and I am happy to report he made it.  Shortly after they left for the game the electric guy showed up and within about an hour the power was restored. So I got to stay home, lights and water working, with the puppies and the cats and just enjoy being at peace in our mountain retreat.


I’ll never know the reason for all the little bumps in the road along the way, but at journey’s end none of them really mattered.  I’m confident that is how it will be when we’re finally home with the Lord, the peace and joy we will experience will far outweigh any difficulty we may encounter along the way.  So just keep on keeping on!

Thursday, October 9, 2014

Is it lawful?

Hypocrites usually care more about external conformity than about inward righteousness. (Commentary on Luke 14:1-6)

This brought to mind an episode in Flashpoint (a police drama where an elite tactical unit responds to extreme situations) – where Ed, in doing his job, shots a young woman and kills her.   He followed procedure, did what he was trained to do, but it’s eating him up because what he did went against what he knew was right.  In a following episode the mother of the young woman comes to forgive him, but he can’t accept it, because he can’t forgive himself.  There is this conflict between doing what he was trained to do and doing what he knew in his heart was the right thing to do.

We are born with this knowledge of what is right and wrong, so that when we sin, by doing what we know is wrong, our hearts confront us and there is no peace.  Only through the forgiveness of a loving Father can we be made right again.  That forgiveness is only found in Jesus.

Saturday, August 23, 2014

Acts 16:6-7

Forbidden by the Holy Spirit to preach the gospel in Asia and Bithynia.  

Our timing is not always in line with God’s timing.  Being sensitive to the Spirit is the best way to “stay” in God’s will, with His plans and purposes, with His time table.  Part of knowing the right thing to do is often knowing the right time to do it.  How does one learn to be sensitive to His Spirit?  By spending time with Him.  Jesus promised His sheep would recognize His voice. 

I’m reminded of phone calls and how we learn to recognize the voice of a friend – just hearing their voice registers in our memory that we know them, that we share a relationship with them, even though we can’t see them.

Paul logically thought he would go to Asia – to preach.  It would seem to make sense.  He was close and preaching the gospel was his mission.  But God had other plans. Paul is being guided by hindrance. The Holy Spirit often guides as much by the closing of doors as He does by the opening of doors.

How do we know? 
Knowing His word
Godly counsel
Prayer with an open, expectant heart
Being still before Him
(not necessarily in this order)

Friday, August 22, 2014

Confrontation is not a dirty word.

Some thoughts on Matt 16;21-28:  Jesus tells His disciples what is to come regarding His suffering and death and His resurrection.  Peter tries to deny it and Jesus confronts him; tells him he is an offense, a stumbling block, that he is thinking like a man not like a disciple.  This must have been hard for Peter to hear, especially following his previous confession that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God.  But Peter needed to see that his present perception, his way of seeing things, was contrary to the will of God.  I find this somehow comforting.  Peter always seemed to struggle with this, and yet I believe it was his faith, not just individually but in example, upon which the church is founded.  I think Peter was truly and completely in awe of Jesus, in the majesty and mystery of Who He was, that he loved Him deeply and knew that he too was loved by this man, this Son of God clothed in humanity.

At this point Jesus knows His time here is short and what is coming, the physical and spiritual suffering he would endure, was probably weighing upon Him.  Peter’s comments were a distraction from the purpose and plan of His Father, a temptation to turn aside and take the “easy way out”.  


But He knew His death and resurrection would be Peter’s (and our) salvation.  That no matter how hard we may try - we will fail.  Only He could redeem that which was lost and restore what was broken.  We will stumble and fall but He has provided a way.  In our weakness He is strong; when we rely upon and cling to Him and live in the awe and wonder of Who He is and of His great love towards us who are called by His name.

In those times when we fail, Jesus will confront us.  Not to condemn us but to show us where our perspective needs adjusting, where our hearts need changing and always to reveal that we are loved and precious in His sight.

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

He is faithful

“I have compassion on the multitude, because they have now continued with Me three days and have nothing to eat. . . Then His disciples answered Him, “How can one satisfy these people with bread here in the wilderness?” (Mark 8:2-4)

How amazing it is that you can come upon a familiar verse or story that you've heard many times before and yet in that moment He comes and takes you deeper and deeper into His presence. 

I must confess that at times I’m somewhat critical of the disciples for their lack of faith. They had the benefit of living with Jesus and seeing the miracles firsthand.  But then I, who have the benefit of the cross and His Spirit within me, also struggle with faith even knowing all that He has done for me.  How fortunate that He is ever patient and faithful, even when I am faithlessly forgetful .  Perhaps too, I just need to focus on His faithfulness rather than my short-term memory in faith. 

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Little blessings

Last week was sort of rough – I got a cold, my hand got involved in a dog fight, for which I ended up in the ER in need of meds, I got some kind of stomach bug, plus the day to day stresses of life. I’m not trying to complain, because even through it all I was comforted and at peace knowing He was ever present with me. . but it was – rough.

On Monday mornings I meet with a group of ladies at a coffee house, Eternal Grounds.  With ever order, you get a blessing – a little scroll containing a Bible verse or two.  I don’t always look at mine – not sure just why.  The one I got yesterday I just stuck in my purse, as I often do, and just forgot about it.  I met with my friends, whom I hadn't seen for a while, and then left for work.  Later, I was to meet another friend for lunch. As I pulled into the parking lot I had this prompting (a little Holy Spirit nudge) to read the blessing I’d gotten that morning . . . so I did and this is what I read:

 
I must mention the really special part is that Isa 30:15 is a life verse for me and has always been a verse that speaks to me of God’s love and acceptance - it’s kinda like a special secret we share.   There have been so many times when He has used this verse to let me know He’s with me and has me covered.

So, when life gets a little messy I know that I can just rest in Him, He is my strength and the hand that holds me and I am BLESSED!

Thursday, July 10, 2014

Clarity in our message and innocence in our dealings; prejudice and troubles will follow.

Abba, you know the conversation I had last night with N.  She was a friend from many years ago, a friend I shared my youth with, traveled with, lived with and then lost contact with.   We recently ran into each other and had lunch.  Last night she called me.  After some small talk she said she feels like she knows me, because of my fb posts – but that I don’t know her.   She told me she is a lesbian – and has always been. While I wasn't aware of this in our youth, I kinda figured it out after our lunch together.  I basically tried to be open to her and not to judge or condemn her in any way.  It’s her choice.  She also stated that she is a Unitarian and a democrat.  She was concerned because knowing what she knows about me, that I am a Christian, makes her anxious.  She doesn't want to pursue reestablishing our relationship – my words, not hers . . . and so the phone call ended.

The truth is, we don’t have much, if anything, in common – except we were once friends and have a shared history.  I am basically the same person I've always been – at least on some level, but I know my life was changed when I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior.  It’s hard for me to remember my life before I surrendered to Him, back when N and I were friends.  I now know that He has always held me in His heart and under the wings of His protection.  I’m not quite sure what to make of the phone conversation.  So I will leave it in Your hands and move on.

Monday, May 19, 2014

New wine

Reading this morning about the New wine in new wine-skins and came across the following quote, which I found quite thought provoking:

“To put this into contemporary terms: our minds must be elastic enough to receive and to contain new ideas.  Within the Church there is a resentment of the new and the attempt to pour new things into old molds is almost universal. We attempt to pour the activities of a modem congregation into an ancient church building which was never meant for them.  We attempt to pour the truth of new discoveries into creeds which are based on Greek metaphysics. We attempt to pour modern instruction into outworn language which cannot express it. We read God's word to twentieth century men and women in Elizabethan English, and seek to present the needs of the twentieth century man and woman to God in prayer language which is four hundred years old.”

I don’t believe this is talking of change just because something is new.  Truth doesn't change.  I think this is one reason why it is so very important to stay grounded in God’s written word while open to His Spirit’s whisperings at the same time.  One will not contradict the other, but should provide clarity and confirmation.

Thoughts?

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Perfect peace

Dear Abba, in reading Psalm 101 this morning, the writer mentions leading a blameless life or having a blameless heart.  I found myself stumbling over blameless, for while it is my desire, I know that I am, in my own strength, not blameless.  Another translation has the word perfect; meaning complete, whole, entire, sound or integrity, completeness.  I remember reading somewhere that it can mean to be used for its intended purpose.  One of the commentaries says that at the time the word meant to be complete towards You, rather than to be perfect, as in without sin.  Either way, Lord, I need You to accomplish Your perfection in me for without You, I am lost.  I find comfort in knowing that this is also Your desire for me and therefore it will be accomplished, HAS been accomplished in Jesus. And in this knowledge I am at peace.

Thursday, May 1, 2014

GLEANINGS FROM GALATIANS


            The book of Galatians was written by Paul, although the exact date is unknown, it was probably around 49 - 52 AD. It was not written to a specific church but to a group of churches in the area of Asia Minor, known as Galatia - which is present day Turkey.  It is believed to be originally settled by the Gauls, of European origin, who settled in the area and were later conquered by Rome and thereby became a Roman providence. The Galatians were a mixture of  pagan Gentiles with some Jewish inhabitants.  As a group they were known to be fickle, impetuous, and loved new and curious things.

            The main subject of the letter was Paul refuting the false teaching of the Judiazers who had apparently infiltrated the churches and were perverting the gospel by compelling the Christian believers to follow or otherwise put themselves under the yoke of Judaism as proof of their religious standing. The first two chapters deal mostly with Paul’s personal experiences and background.  Chapters 3 and 4 are his doctrinal statements regarding grace and it’s sufficiency for salvation. Paul uses the word grace 100 times in his writings. Among all the other writers of the New Testament, the word "grace" is only used 55 times. Paul was truly the apostle of grace.  The final chapters describe how grace is applied and what it looks like in the life of a believer.

            Initially Paul summarizes his personal testimony and the reasons why he speaks with authority.  Paul was a Pharisee of Pharisees and was steeped in the rituals and practices of Judaism but after his personal encounter with, and acceptance of, the risen Christ he became a leading proponent of the gospel of grace; that in Christ all had been accomplished that was needed for salvation.  Anything added on to this gospel was a perversion and  those preaching such a gospel should be “eternally condemned”. He recalls his time alone in Arabia after his conversion, his trip to Jerusalem and his meeting with Peter and James, how he was known among the churches in Syria and Cilicia as “the one who had formerly persecuted the church was now preaching the faith he once tried to destroy.”  He speaks of attending the council in Jerusalem, and how the pillars of the church, Peter, James and John, “recognized the grace given to him” as being the same as they had received.  He speaks of his encounter with Peter in Antioch and how he rebuked Peter for his hypocritical behavior regarding certain men who had “come from James”.  Peter had not deliberately departed from right doctrine: he had simply deviated from it in practice.  Paul lays out why his testimony is true and that his authority as an apostle, one set apart, is legitimate.

We know that a man is not justified by observing the law, but by faith in Jesus Christ. 2:15

I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live but Christ lives in me.  The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God who loved me and gave Himself for me. 2:20

            He then begins his discourse on the liberty we have in Christ and how it differs from the bondage of those under the law. Through faith in Christ we are no longer prisoners to the law of sin and death.  He points out that “we Jews” know that no one is justified - made right with God - by observing the law but by faith in Christ alone.  He cites several Old Testament references as evidence that this has always been God’s intention.  For the law was unable to impart life, but Christ, through His death on the cross, gave new life to us. The law brings death and so we have died to the law.  The cross brings life, which we now live by faith in Jesus.  He speaks of the Spirit’s role in this new process of sanctification - whereby we are being conformed into the image of Christ - and how He is received by faith, not through observing some ritual, following some rule or adhering to some regulation.

But the Scripture declares that the whole world is a prisoner of sin, so that what was promised, being given through faith in Jesus Christ, might be given to those who believe. 3:22

Because you are sons, God sent the Spirit of His Son into our hearts, the Spirit who calls out Abba, Father.  So you are no longer a slave, but a son and since you are a son, God has made you also an heir. 4:6-7

            He brings up Abraham and the covenant of faith, which preceded the giving of the law and was given as a promise from God to those who were of the family of faith, the true descendants of Abraham; Christ (the Seed) being the fulfillment of the promise. (Promise: the Greek word kecharistai which is based on the Greek word charis - grace. God's giving to Abraham was the free giving of grace. The word is also in the perfect tense, showing that the gift is permanent.)  The law was added some 430 years later so that we would become aware of our sin - as a doctor who tells us we are sick and therefore in need of healing but the law was never intended as a means of salvation - but only to reveal our need for a Savior, for we can not save ourselves.  The problem was not a defect in the law but a defect in the people. The Judiazers saw the law as a remedy for sin - rather than a revealer of sin. But to go back under the law would be like someone who is on a kidney machine.  Once he receives a new kidney, the machine is no longer necessary and to go back on the machine would in fact stop the new kidney from functioning. 

            We have been made sons of God through faith in Jesus and what He accomplished. We are no longer “debtors” but heirs of the promise.  There is no distinction in the household of God - Jew or Gentile, slave or free, etc. - the playing field has been leveled and we are all on equal footing.  We are no longer slaves to the basic principles of this world - as one commentator put it, it’s no longer a “cause and effect” relationship. We are now subject to and under grace.  We now rely upon, trust in and cling to the work of Christ Jesus, and because of Him we now have the right and privilege to call upon the One who called all things into being and to call Him Abba.
  
            Paul again points out the discrepancies between grace that comes through faith and the bondage of being under the law and the works of our own efforts.  He uses the analogy of Sarah, the free woman and Hagar, the bond woman. Through Sarah the son of promise is born, while Hagar's son comes about through human effort.  The contrast between the two shows how reliance upon God rather than reliance upon our own ingenuity and self-effort is what is pleasing and acceptable to God.

            It is for freedom that Christ has set us free.  5:1
           
For in Christ Jesus neither circumcision nor un-circumcision has any value. The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself though love. 5:6

            This liberty we now have is not of the flesh - to do what ever we want - but the freedom to love God and serve one another in love.  He goes on to describe the works of the flesh versus the fruit of the Spirit. As one commentator put it:

“The works of the flesh and the fruit of love are not two different optional ways to live in freedom. When you live according to the flesh, you are in slavery. But when you serve each other in love, you are in freedom. Why? Because love is motivated by the joy of sharing our fullness, but the works of the flesh are motivated by the desire to fill our emptiness.”  J.Piper 

So I say, live by the Spirit and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature. 5:16 

            This is a promise; that when we are lead by and abide in the Spirit, rather than following in our own strength - we will live a life that is honoring to God and He will produce the fruit.  We can’t make ourselves “new creations”.  God does that for us, it is something He does in us, not something we do for Him.

            The final chapter is a description of what this new life in the Spirit will look like.

            To bear one another’s burdens and so fulfill the law of Christ.  6:2


            As Christians, our lives are going to reflect the practices, principles and perspectives of Jesus. We will be sensitive to His promptings in our lives and rather than competing with one another we will strive to complete one another.  Our motives will come from our desire to please Him and a surrendering to His Spirit in us.  Our hearts will long to show our love for Him - not as payback - but from the joy of knowing that we belong to Him and from the desire to be instruments of His grace and love to those whom He brings into our lives.

Thursday, April 17, 2014

Ready

Father, I commit myself to You this day – clothed in Your righteousness, standing in Your presence.  I want to be a warrior not a wimp.  I have this image of one clothed in armor, waiting to receive my orders, ready to face whatever lays ahead, strong and sure.  While at the same time, a child, clinging to Your hand and being carried by You – the One in Whom I trust – so much bigger than me, stronger, more powerful than any other – the One in Whom I find rest, knowing that I am not alone.  Whatever battle I may encounter, win or lose, the victory is already Yours and I belong to You.


Friday, March 21, 2014

Work in progress

In reading from a devotional this morning, I came across “if we are doing God’s work . . . ” followed by the assurance of His protection, His care and His strong guiding hand.  This is not a guarantee that life will be easy or without difficulties – for in truth tribulations are also promised (John 16:33).  What struck me was “doing His work”, which always causes a certain amount of fear because I think to myself “oh dear, am I doing enough for Him?”   This isn't a bad thing – a little self-examination can be helpful but it needs to be kept in perspective.  So when I start to get a bit freaked out, because I’m not “doing enough” I have to remember how Jesus defined “work”.   In John 6:29 - Jesus answered and said to them, “This is the work of God, that you believe in Him whom He sent.” . . . . and once again, peace is restored.

I have come to understand that "belief" is not a passive thing, but active and alive and a result of His Holy Spirit working in my heart.  It's His gift to me and all I need do is surrender my will to His.  And no, it's not easy - I am a work in progress but I know that I can trust Him because He has promised to complete the work He has begun.  The assurance is in Him . . . not in me, and that is a relief!

Thursday, March 13, 2014

Sitting in the moon light

Abba, sitting here just now and seeing the moon, barely peeking through the trees a thought occurred.  Sometimes to see the light I may need to change my position, move in a certain direction, or take some action.  At other times all I need do is wait, knowing the light will reveal itself.  Which I do requires discernment, which only comes by abiding in You and listening.  You have promised that those who seek You, will find You and so I come, seeking to know You and to follow where ever and however You may lead.

Friday, February 14, 2014

A lesson learned from a nail in my tire.

Driving home after work yesterday, I discovered I had a nail in my tire, I could hear it thumping as I drove on the road. So, I drove to the tire place to get it repaired. As the tire guy looked at my tire he asked for the unlock key so they could remove, repair and replace the tire. After searching for it, It became apparent that I did not have the unlock key. The car was a preowned car when I purchased it, and never having needed the unlock key before, I now realized the car did not have one. I called the dealership and somewhat frustratedly spoke with the sales manager, thinking MAYBE I just didn't know where the unlock key was located. I was told sometimes the preowned cars don't come with an unlock key. NOW they tell me. I could purchase one from their parts department, which closed at 6:00. It was now about 5:45 and the dealership was clear across town, not to mention I had no way of getting there. SO, I called Brant, who was just getting out of court . . . in Madison, about an hour away and he came to my rescue. So this morning we will need to go and purchase an unlock key so I have the tire repaired.


As I sit here this morning, remembering the frustration and thinking of the “what ifs” that could have happened, I realized how very present my Abba was through out this event. I was never in any real danger – inconvenienced but never in danger. Everyone I dealt with was very patient and kind, even with my ranting. There is a solution, the tire will get fixed and I will now have the unlock key I need – should I ever really need it at some future time. I realize now, that rather than letting the situation rob me of my peace, I could just as easily have turned to Him, resting in the assurance that He has me covered. There are certainly worse things than being inconvenienced by a nail in my tire, and I need to keep things in perspective. I'm reminded of a life's lesson I've had to learn and relearn time and time again.

The storm won't last, remember Who is in the boat with me and that He has promised to get me to the other side.

Friday, January 10, 2014

Abraham and Isaac

In the story of Abraham and Isaac – Abraham's willingness to kill, to lay down, what was most precious to him in order to obey the voice of God – Am I?   What I heard that I need to lay down was my burden – to stop striving and just rest, trust Him to provide and to work out all the myriad details concerning the cares of this life. My God, my Abba will provide.

I remember another time, when what I was to lay down was being a part of the worship team – and how very hard and painful it was because I was holding it to tightly and had let it define who I whose, rather than Whose I am.  I remember to the joy that comes in letting go, in laying down.

Sometimes we only need be willing – but most others require the actual doing. Either way requires our unconditional obedience, our response to His unconditional love.

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Life Goals

Rather than new years resolutions, I've decided to set and work toward life goals - but only with the Lord's help can I attain them.
  1. To love well.
  2. To be a blessing to others.
  3. To be present in each moment and see the joy that can be found.
  4. To be humble and contrite in spirit and tremble at His word (Isa 66:2)
  5. Rejoice, pray and give thanks.
  6. To increase my capacity for faith, joy and love.
  7. Eucharisteo.
  8. To be generous with my life.
  9. To see difficulties as blessings in disguise.
  10. To see disappointments as opportunities for growth.
  11. To become fearless.
  12. To practice extravagant worship.