In His hands

ABBA FATHER, I’m not sure just “where” I am at the moment, but do believe I’m close to Your heart and that Your hand, Your blessing rests upon me.  I desire to know You and to be known by You – starting in the depth of me and moving out into every part of me and my life.  I struggle, with feelings of unworthiness – which in part come from a belief that I’m not “doing” enough with all that I have been given, that I’m not being a “good” steward.  I know that I am not saved by anything I do – but how I live my life is a reflection of my relationship with You, it’s a testimony of Who You are and I don’t want to disappoint You in any way.  I feel so small and insignificant in Your kingdom.  Perhaps that is my part . . . and if so, that’s okay with me.  I just want to be the best “me” I can be for You and for Your glory.  I am trusting that You will complete the work You have begun in me.

. . . and in the morning my prayer comes before You. (Psa 88:13)

I am an early riser and usually get up before my alarm goes off.  This morning, however, the alarm got me up and I found that I really would have preferred to just go back to sleep.  I couldn’t understand why I felt so tired - But as is my routine, I got up, let the dogs out, made a pot of coffee and began my morning quiet time.  At one point, after my first cup of coffee, I looked up and noticed the time – it said 4:30 . . . but that can’t be right, that’s too early, even for me.  Then I remembered that I had taken my Sunday afternoon nap the day before and had forgotten to re-set the alarm . . . and so here I am.  Its okay though - a little extra quiet time with my Father is always worth it!

Your Spirit in me

FATHER, I want to do what is right, pleasing and acceptable in Your sight. I know I’ve blown it – have chosen my way rather than Yours, have sinned against You in thought, word and deed – overstepping the boundaries that You have established. I also know that You forgive, that You are merciful and gracious – far beyond anything I deserve or could even hope for. But because of Who You are – I have hope and assurance that You will accomplish and bring to completion the work You have begun in me. Knowing what is right and true is not enough but with this knowledge must come action, a change of heart, mind and soul. This can only come through Your indwelling Spirit and – somehow – my cooperation with His working in me. It’s a mystery that I’m not sure I will ever fully understand on this side of eternity. All I know is that I can trust You to finish what You have begun; that I can rest in this knowledge and that is enough – more than enough for me.